So since i already had my 3 lil helpers dressed & out of the house i figured we would stop by target before heading home to grab a few things. i had briefly seen my pastors wife in the card section upon entering the store - we chatted a few moments & then i wanted to rush along before baby ZC needed to eat ! so we grabbed about 1/2 of what we came for & the phone rang...
over a year later i still remember where i was walking/standing at in the store (facing east just outta the cold section w/the dishes on my left). it was a horrible feeling.... this voice on the other end was telling me that my beautiful, precious ZC's liver numbers were not good & that i would need to see a specialist... my feet felt like lead, yet at the same time i couldn't walk 'fast' enough... it was like i was
trapped - i mean seriously my heart was being
RIPPED outta my chest & being stomped on.... here i am living life & i was just told i could lose it....
so i started making my way up front to pay for what was already in my cart... i was crying - people were staring - i was feeling like i wanted to
scream - you have NOOOO idea what i am experiencing. just then i 'happened' (another part of my awesome Heavenly Father's plan !) to see my pastor's wife again. she prayed over us right then & there in the middle of the busiest section of target... my husband does not carry a cell phone so she was my 1st adult to share with that i needed serious prayers.
za & zb were
very, very concerned - asking why was mommy crying ?? what is wrong ?? i just kept saying we MUST pray for zc to be healthy & for healing inside of him... this was the start of a
long journey for these 2 big brothers. they both prayed & i could not stop praying. i just kept praying, praying, & praying..... my heart was
pleading with our Maker for my new blessing to be perfect.
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